I’ve got Bumblebee right now sweating profusely as he struggles to get some screws into the wall to put some curtains up for me. I don’t think he’s used to such hard wood. LOL. He’s been working outside on my garden as well here and there, buying and planting flowers, tomatoes, cilantro, chiles, lavender though my garden is already pretty lush. It seem the previous owners of my pleasure palace planted lilacs, lily of the valley, spearmint, roses and loads of other beautiful and fragrant  things.

The trees in my yards are so mature and large that they are almost twice the height of my home. They have been here for at least 50 years, I’m sure. Old and wondrous things they are and seeing them outside the window everyday is a sight to behold. I can see hummingbirds and dragonflies buzzing through the branches and Ophelia has fun barking at the rabbits, raccoons and possums that scurry through the yard to torment her. Yet Ballenger Rd. is just right there, it feels like I am miles away from civilization. With the wind I hear the timbre of the numerous wind chimes I have peppered the yard with to drown out the construction on Miller Rd.

I called today to have the water line turned on for the yard since this is such a huge property it’s a separate line from the house and has to be turned off and on according to the changing of the seasons. I have a pool maintenance company coming to set up my pool and jacuzzi next week for the summer and I can hardly wait! I’ll be swimming like a siren in no time.

I’m going to have Jen come over soon to start the haunted mansion damask airbrushing project on the walls, and Bumblebee is going to start working on putting up the shoe shelves for my dressing room.

I have the biggest hard-on for Anthony Bourdain and Gordon Ramsey and I can admit to it. I used to eat at Brasserie Les Halles on Park Ave. in NYC when I lived there between ‘98 and 2001 all the time. Once a week or so, I’d go there for lunch consisting of either steak au poivre or moules frites since it was down the street from the old Arena Blaze location. I had no idea who Anthony Bourdain was then (I only discovered his magnificence after I had moved). It pains me now to think I could have gone into that kitchen past all of his vato mostly Mexican staff and seduced him right there in his steaming kitchen. ::sigh::

His shows are amazing. His books even more so and not just the food-related ones. I absolutely love his novels Bone In the Throat and Gone Bamboo. He’s gritty and raw; honest and decadent. He is a sensualist in that he adores food and travel with fervor. The smells, the sights- the experiences. I can’t help but wish i was 15 years older so I might have bumped into him in NYC at CBGBs or some other such haunt since he has similiar taste in music. Now I can only hope to one day bump into him at some dive bar somewhere while picking Stooges songs on the jukebox and have a few shots at the bar while discussing his appreciation for Latino workers in America’s kitchens. So yeah, I’m gushing.

My love affair with Gordon Ramsey is a little different though the fact the he and AB are close friends does make it a little perverse. He’s about the bluntest motherfucker in the universe and doesn’t suffer fools. He ruthlessly vies to bring out the best in people through extreme discipline. I find that sort of thing refreshing, coming from Southern California the land of yes men and the two-faced where no one is what they say they are and everyone plays at being a friend. I wish more people were as honest as that in this universe.

Now before anyone starts messaging me thinking that trying to emulate these brash, foul-mouthed qualities is going to endear you to me, sorry…I don’t think it’s going to work. Mistresses can have fantasies too and while these two have a part in them, you don’t. Too bad, both of those bastards are married.

So they are doing construction on Miller Rd. all summer since “construction” is one of our seasons here. We have no spring or summer. It goes straight from Winter to Construction every year. Anyway, it always ends up interrupting our Comcast crappy cable service at least once and voila! Today the cable is out in the area. So how am I online? I had to go to the Mega Classic Diner to log on since they are a hot spot. They also have the best hot dogs so I’m stuffing my gob full of wieners right now as I type this. LOL.

I’ve been so busy over the last week and it’s going to get busier. The weeks are flying by. I’m going to be in NYC May 31st-June 4th and got my ticket last night. If you want to session with me get in touch asap because I’m going to be booked solid.

I had a great day of shooting yesterday with Joe Cardenas. I did some pantyhose pics by popular request and also donned a vintage mink stole and smoked some Mores. I also did stocking photos so don’t fret! It has been a while since I have added any horror sets so I did a mad butcher set in a latex half mask and apron with lots of body parts, a meat cleaver and gore and another set of me being fondled by giant demon hands. It was so sexy! I had my slave Velma acting as my PA during the shoot and she enjoyed rubbing blood all over my body with the demon hands. She also got to clean up afterwards. LOL.

Bumblebee stopped by during the shoot to water my plants but he was too afraid to come inside because in his own words, seeing me naked is something he “couldn’t handle”. LOL.

I have been so busy all week in the dungeon, on niteflirt, shooting, just with everything. It’s been crazy. But, it has to be done. I have a 3 hr session tomorrow and a short shoot then a phone session. I’m very tired. Goodnight.

It’s only 6pm and it’s been a long day. Watch my video diary! I have a lot to do tonight. I’ve been so busy on the phones all day and tonight will probably be more of the same. I have had to squeeze my workouts between that and editing my clips here for the diary. Maybe I’ll learn this editing thing yet!

I had a really fun session last night with a sissy slut. My stripper pole is getting so much use now, I’m glad to have bought it! Ok, back to work.

Fun fun! This is my first video diary message so it’s a test. Do you like the idea?

Hahaha…it really is. I once called out that very same thing to my friends at the table in the middle of a crowded restaurant after one of my particularly grueling yoga classes. Innocently, of course, but I’m not so sure people knew I was sore from yoga! A little embarrassing but i for some reason lost my inner voice. I just finished a routine of 2 hrs of pilates and an hr. of bun and thigh exercises on the balance ball. Yikes! Feel that burn! Now I am lying in bed, sexily dressed and made up, taking phone and webcam sessions on niteflirt .

I decided to quit live journal today and made all but 2 of my 877 entries there private (for my memories) because I didn’t see the point of keeping it when I blog here now! I also deleted all of my yahoo groups because they are pointless spam magnets and I stopped using them ages ago. It just makes me more awesomely exclusive, don’t you think? This should be where you all belong if you need to be in the know…

I have another shoot with Joe Cardenas on the 10th and another video to upload soon from the last shoot we did. Latex anyone?

Here are some questions that have been sent to me by people and I will take the time to answer them. If you have any questions you may leave them here as a reply.

What is your ethnic background?
I get this question a lot even though I have answered it repeatedly. I was born in Southern California. My parents were both born in Mexico but my grandparents on my mother’s side came from Spain in the 1930s during the revolution. My grandmother was Spanish and my grandfather was French. My parents came to the USA in the 1960s.

I read somewhere that you are a transsexual. Is this true?
Of course not. While I have worked with many gorgeous and wonderful transgendered models such as the sublime Meghan Chavalier, I myself am NOT a TS. I was born as female as the glamour I exude. Some of my biggest fans are in the TS and TG community because they understand, appreciate and adore glamour. Only someone who doesn’t would doubt the authenticity of a true femme fatale. Or someone jealous!

Don’t you think your hands would look more proportionate with short nails? Why do you wear them so long? I think they look tacky.
I have had shorter nails and I HATE the way my fingers look without my trademark claws. They add a feral quality to me that you either love or you don’t and if you don’t I don’t really care because I’m not changing them for you.

You look so tall in your photos! How tall are you?
I’m actually quite petite at 5’3” but I look tall because I have good proportions and long legs.

You have such a dark and wicked image. Are you a Satanist?
For me to be a Satanist would mean surrendering to set of beliefs dictated by someone else and I don’t follow religions of any kind. I prefer to be my own Goddess and I don’t seem to lack any worshippers in my temple!

Are you available for live sessions?
Are you living on Saturn? I’ve been available for sessions since 1993. Booking info is on my booking page!

More questions? Comments? Leave them here!

My divorce from Tim Polecat is official as of today. Ahhhhhh…how nice it feel to be free at last. I have been separated from my ex since 2005 but for various annoying reasons I won’t get into, the actual divorce has dragged on and on and on so today I went to court and was granted a default divorce. I’m free, boys.

What a great year. I’m the proud owner of a beautiful estate home that I bought with my own hard-earned cash, my dungeon is coming along fabulously, I’m no longer bound by law to anyone, I started a new company and I have two wonderful slaves serving me. That’s not enough, I need to do something even bigger this year!

I heard that it’s supposed to snow tomorrow. The last cold spell before it’s officially spring time. I’m itching to get my swimming pool up and running!

I have some more shoots coming up. There should be another update by tomorrow as well.

I was talking to my slave girl Jenah this morning and as were were having a cheerful banter it occurred to me that I now have a new pet name for her.Velma. Yes, Velma like the intelligently indispensible yes girl from Scooby Doo. I think the name is perfect as she is smart, obedient, and efficient. I want to have her in a pleated skirt, sweater or blouse and knee socks from now on as well as glasses and I want to dye her hair that cartoon reddish color too. Awwwww…..she’ll be so cute!